Day 20- What does your future hold/where would you like to be?
I feel like I kind of answered this question on Tuesday when I listed my plans, goals, and dreams. But I don't really mind talking about it again because now I can be a more in dept about my future.
I'm a pretty simple girl. I don't feel like I need to live an extravagant life. I mean sure, I like the finer things, but who doesn't? However, over the years I've grown to understand that these fancy things are not worth going into debt for, and they most certainly don't bring happiness.
What I want for my future is to be happy and loved with a great husband and awesome kids. Honestly though, it's not all that easy for me to picture. I guess it’s because it's hard for me to imagine myself getting married and having kids. I mean of course I want these things to happen, but I feel like I have so much growing to do before I could ever get to the point of marriage. Plus, I never want to divorce and I know that I can't rush into anything. For the past 6 months though I had been so fixated on finding that right person and getting married. It hasn't helped that I absolutely love children and have baby fever too. I had even set an age that I wanted to be married by. I decided that I needed to be married by 30 years old. And that I should have my first baby by 32. I know, I know, I agree that it's completely ridiculous to think this way. I am actually kind of surprised that I did it to begin with. I've always thought in the past that it will happen when it's time. I guess seeing all my friends around me getting engaged and married is what prompted all this. I'm just happy to report that over the past couple of weeks I've went back to my old way of thinking. Getting married and having a family is a nice thought and definitely a dream of mine, but when it happens it will happen and I'm not going to worry about it anymore.
There is something I have been thinking about a lot lately that I want to see happen in the future. I'm really thinking hard about getting a master's degree. This is something that I really want to accomplish. I love working with very young children and I’ve had many opportunities to do so working at Sylvan Learning Center. They have a great Beginner Reader (BR) Program that I’ve pretty much become a pro at tutoring kids in. (Please don't think I am bragging on myself. It's the program I tutor kids with the most.) At first I would get super annoyed that all I ever seemed to do was tutor kids in the BR program. But over time I realized how much I loved it and this is what led me to wanting to become a reading specialist. :) Now, I don't want to do an online masters program. I don't like the idea of teaching myself. I want to actually attend classes. I will tell you though that this makes me nervous too because I think how tired I am after working all day and going to class in the evening is going to be super tough. So what I have decided to do it take my dad and sister, Dominique's advice. Before I jump head first, I'm going to take one class and see how it goes. Then if I love it and I can handle it, I'll take the GRE and all the necessary steps I need to get the ball rolling.
Like I said at the beginning of the post, I just want my future to hold a whole lot of happiness. When I’m old and think back on my life I don’t want to have regrets at what I should have done differently or feel sad about the way my life unfolded. I want to be able to smile that big Ash Pride cheeser grin and feel like my life has been very good. :)